Good-bye for now.

4.1.2021 Dear dad, What if you knew you were going to die? What if you were told three days before? Only you knew. Would you have told us? Would you have kept it to yourself? Would you have told mom? You loved each other unlike anything or anyone else. You were made one in an […]

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Phase 2020.

12.27.2020 Dear dad, I think this year may have been my favorite Christmas. Or at least one of the best in a long time. Maybe that sounds crazy or impossible in a year ravaged by a pandemic. I know there has been so much loss and heartache. I do not intend at all to dismiss […]

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What was I scared of?

12.11.2020 Dear dad, I didn’t see you. Mom asked me if I wanted to. I said no. I was scared. I was scared of you. I was scared of me. What would happen to me seeing your lifeless body when seeing your body become lifeless had threatened to ruin everything inside of me? Your voice […]

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The arena.

8.19.20 Dad, I have been waiting on this a long time. Mulling over when and how to express something so lofty. So precious as life. Like holding a bird in your hands. Cupping them firmly enough so he doesn’t fly away but gently so as not to harm him. I think the truth is often […]

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Helheimr!

5.5.2020 Dear dad, I suppose you, and the people (I know, our letters are indeed seen by more eyes than our own), are probably tired of hearing about movies. The thing is, I just can’t help it. When I watch movies or read books, pieces of their stories inevitably and loudly speak to my own. […]

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Pandiculation.

4.11.20 Dear dad, I do not believe it a coincidence that the Webster dictionary word of the day today is “pandiculation.” What in the world right? At first, I wasn’t sure how this had anything to do with anything. I opened the app on my phone to look up a couple words from the book […]

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