Good-bye for now.

4.1.2021 Dear dad, What if you knew you were going to die? What if you were told three days before? Only you knew. Would you have told us? Would you have kept it to yourself? Would you have told mom? You loved each other unlike anything or anyone else. You were made one in an […]

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Lauren of Samaria.

3.14.2021 Dear dad, My heart is racing. I asked that this Lent be different. Well, I think I’m getting it. And it’s not just missing coffee. “My heart is swollen with fear and wonder; it can tell me nothing except I’m standing on holy ground.” [Nicodemus, The Chosen] In today’s Gospel reading [Year B; John […]

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Burnt almonds.

3.3.2021 Dear dad, One of my new favorite things is making almond butter. It is probably the best day of the week. I buy a package of raw almonds, roast them, and stick them in the food processor. The process is magical and the taste so much better than a jar from the store. Better […]

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A leprous love.

2.14.2021 Dear dad, Reading and listening to the Gospel passage today, it seems just like another one of Jesus’ miracles. This healing of the leper is from the first chapter of Mark so very early on in the public ministry of Jesus.  I say it seems like just another one of Jesus’ miracles because leprosy […]

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In[sense].

1.14.2021 Dad, I wanted to have a post ready for the new year. This is that. Just a bit late. The thing is there is so much fuss, both good energy and poor, surrounding the turn of the year, and maybe rightly so. Especially the turn from 2020 to 2021. I didn’t want to take […]

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Phase 2020.

12.27.2020 Dear dad, I think this year may have been my favorite Christmas. Or at least one of the best in a long time. Maybe that sounds crazy or impossible in a year ravaged by a pandemic. I know there has been so much loss and heartache. I do not intend at all to dismiss […]

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What was I scared of?

12.11.2020 Dear dad, I didn’t see you. Mom asked me if I wanted to. I said no. I was scared. I was scared of you. I was scared of me. What would happen to me seeing your lifeless body when seeing your body become lifeless had threatened to ruin everything inside of me? Your voice […]

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